It's been a while. Never take for granted anything you do...even writing a blog. Its the little things that make life beautiful. Life has been, well for want of a better word 'interesting'. I thank God that He has been even more 'interesting'. There's this stage where one moves from knowing about God to knowing God. Separating fact from fiction. Separating people's opinions of God from what you know yourself to be true. There's this stage where one is in the wilderness, there are no cell phone signals, no microwaves and worst of all no MAC (lol!). Separating what/who you think you need from what you really need. Learning the basics...of survival. Confronting the difference between what people see and the person you know you are. Realising that if not for the grace of God....
It is so personal....this walk with God. No one knows me like He does. It is so public....this walk with God. For the world is always watching to see if I truly believe what I say I believe. All I'll say is that I'm glad that despite everything, there's someone who will ALWAYS be there. Someone greater, someone bigger, someone more forgiving. Someone who loves me.
So the 'On' series, sharing bits and pieces from my journal. I don't know what the frequency will be, hopefully it'll be more than one. I'm asking questions, sharing musings, praying...hopefully sharing testimonies. One of the things I love the most about the Bible is that it doesn't read 'PERFECT'. I think a lot of us struggle with living to this ideal that Christianity = Perfection. David....shepherd boy, combination of melancholic and choleric personalities, psalmist, warrior, king. In the course of his life, he showed poor decision making, insert Bathsheba, insert poor parenting skills. How do we know? Because the Bible recorded it. 'But these things were written for our examples..'
Its about growing. Its about learning.
Remain blessed and highly favoured.
Showing posts with label Conversations. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Conversations. Show all posts
Monday, 4 April 2011
Tuesday, 20 April 2010
Rest..
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Mark 11:28-30
This is what the LORD says: "Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is, and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls. But you said, 'We will not walk in it.' Jeremiah 6:16
Shhh
Rest
Be calm
These are not human arms
That hold you in this love embrace
These hands don't get tired or weary
Never too busy or lack the strength or lose grip
I know that sometimes in the midst of the storm you forget
Who it is that you are in Covenant relationship with as you compare
The love I have for you with what you have experienced in the hands of men
Who at their very best are rarely able to give you the very best that you need
I am not a man and I cannot lie for I am TRUTH and within these arms find comfort
Within these arms, REST, for the battle is still raging and having done all, you must STAND
REST because there are those I shall send your way to whom you will be my arms and mouth
To say REST for as you have received comfort you must also comfort your brethren
Reminding them of the love I have for them that they are not alone
Tell them to know their God for they shall in turn do exploits
Greater works than they can think or imagine
And they in turn shall provide strength
For those who are weary
And bear burdens
They shall say
Be calm
Rest
Shh
Conversations with God are so interesting but we really need to set the atmosphere, not so much for Him to speak but for us to hear what He is saying. There is no comfort like that which comes from the Holy Spirit. He reaches so deep into you to places you never knew existed, binding broken pieces with the love of God. I tried to copy Kafo but I'm not sure that worked very well!! The point is to remember that there is a place you can go to find rest. Sometimes it means leaving a physical location but when you can't get to Barbados, get in the Spirit and find that place of rest in Him. He's always available.
Remain blessed and highly favoured. Irrespective of whatever point you are in the story of your life, remember its never over until The Storyteller writes The End.
This is what the LORD says: "Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is, and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls. But you said, 'We will not walk in it.' Jeremiah 6:16
Shhh
Rest
Be calm
These are not human arms
That hold you in this love embrace
These hands don't get tired or weary
Never too busy or lack the strength or lose grip
I know that sometimes in the midst of the storm you forget
Who it is that you are in Covenant relationship with as you compare
The love I have for you with what you have experienced in the hands of men
Who at their very best are rarely able to give you the very best that you need
I am not a man and I cannot lie for I am TRUTH and within these arms find comfort
Within these arms, REST, for the battle is still raging and having done all, you must STAND
REST because there are those I shall send your way to whom you will be my arms and mouth
To say REST for as you have received comfort you must also comfort your brethren
Reminding them of the love I have for them that they are not alone
Tell them to know their God for they shall in turn do exploits
Greater works than they can think or imagine
And they in turn shall provide strength
For those who are weary
And bear burdens
They shall say
Be calm
Rest
Shh
Conversations with God are so interesting but we really need to set the atmosphere, not so much for Him to speak but for us to hear what He is saying. There is no comfort like that which comes from the Holy Spirit. He reaches so deep into you to places you never knew existed, binding broken pieces with the love of God. I tried to copy Kafo but I'm not sure that worked very well!! The point is to remember that there is a place you can go to find rest. Sometimes it means leaving a physical location but when you can't get to Barbados, get in the Spirit and find that place of rest in Him. He's always available.
Remain blessed and highly favoured. Irrespective of whatever point you are in the story of your life, remember its never over until The Storyteller writes The End.
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Friday, 27 November 2009
The Wilderness Chronicles: Day 7
His Side of the story
Sometimes I forget that prayer is a conversation that involves me and Him. I talk for ages and then I walk away, some days He has to interrupt me in the middle of my musings so that He can give His own side of the story. A big lesson in the wilderness for me is that He speaks, oh He speaks, all the time. Sometimes, there is silence but He speaks. I pray He continues to speak for His words are power and they are life
Pray tell my child, when did I cease to be
a REFUGE
a FORTRESS
a WAYMAKER
a COUNSELLOR
a COMFORTER
a MIGHTY GOD
a PROVIDER
a HEALER
a SOURCE OF STRENGTH
a PILLAR
a ROCK
a GOD
a HUSBAND
a FATHER
a LOVER
a FRIEND
and all the other names you read in the Book? Could it be that you have been praising me as A instead of MY? As A mighty God instead of MY mighty God, as A healer instead of MY healer..so
Pray tell my child when did I cease to be
your REFUGE
your FORTRESS
your WAYMAKER
your COUNSELLOR
your COMFORTER
your MIGHTY GOD
your PROVIDER
your HEALER
your SOURCE OF STRENGTH
your PILLAR
your ROCK
your GOD
your HUSBAND
your FATHER
your LOVER
your FRIEND
and if I am as you sing all these and more....then why are you so AFRAID? Selah
I'm still thinking about it
Sometimes I forget that prayer is a conversation that involves me and Him. I talk for ages and then I walk away, some days He has to interrupt me in the middle of my musings so that He can give His own side of the story. A big lesson in the wilderness for me is that He speaks, oh He speaks, all the time. Sometimes, there is silence but He speaks. I pray He continues to speak for His words are power and they are life
Pray tell my child, when did I cease to be
a REFUGE
a FORTRESS
a WAYMAKER
a COUNSELLOR
a COMFORTER
a MIGHTY GOD
a PROVIDER
a HEALER
a SOURCE OF STRENGTH
a PILLAR
a ROCK
a GOD
a HUSBAND
a FATHER
a LOVER
a FRIEND
and all the other names you read in the Book? Could it be that you have been praising me as A instead of MY? As A mighty God instead of MY mighty God, as A healer instead of MY healer..so
Pray tell my child when did I cease to be
your REFUGE
your FORTRESS
your WAYMAKER
your COUNSELLOR
your COMFORTER
your MIGHTY GOD
your PROVIDER
your HEALER
your SOURCE OF STRENGTH
your PILLAR
your ROCK
your GOD
your HUSBAND
your FATHER
your LOVER
your FRIEND
and if I am as you sing all these and more....then why are you so AFRAID? Selah
I'm still thinking about it
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Monday, 7 September 2009
This pain is necessary...
I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the WORLD rejoices. You will grieve, but your GRIEF will be turned to JOY. A woman giving birth to a child has PAIN because her TIME has COME; but when her baby is born she FORGETS the anguish because of her JOY that a child is born into the world. John 17:20-21 NIV
I am in pain and it hurts. I believe I know what I can do to stop it (at least on a temporary basis) but I sense God telling me to stay put. Why? God can't you see me, can't you feel this? Are you sure?
Yes, I am for this pain is necessary to birth your destiny. Just like a woman has no choice for when that baby is ready, there is a necessary pain but that pain turns to joy when she puts all her strength in pushing her baby out. Your pain is necessary for it speaks of the transformation taking place in your life, the butterfly goes through pain as it forces itself out of the pupa but the pain is necessary to get to the next stage. This pain is necessary for you must go out and testify of your experiences that you may comfort those that walk that path without the benefit of knowing Me as you do, they will only relate to someone who understands their pain.
This pain is necessary for like Jacob with his limp it causes you to lean on me even more, to take up the mantle of humility. Look at Jesus, I watched as they put Him through the most excruciating pain, I could have stopped it, but then we wouldn't be having this conversation would we?
Selah
I am in pain and it hurts. I believe I know what I can do to stop it (at least on a temporary basis) but I sense God telling me to stay put. Why? God can't you see me, can't you feel this? Are you sure?
Yes, I am for this pain is necessary to birth your destiny. Just like a woman has no choice for when that baby is ready, there is a necessary pain but that pain turns to joy when she puts all her strength in pushing her baby out. Your pain is necessary for it speaks of the transformation taking place in your life, the butterfly goes through pain as it forces itself out of the pupa but the pain is necessary to get to the next stage. This pain is necessary for you must go out and testify of your experiences that you may comfort those that walk that path without the benefit of knowing Me as you do, they will only relate to someone who understands their pain.
This pain is necessary for like Jacob with his limp it causes you to lean on me even more, to take up the mantle of humility. Look at Jesus, I watched as they put Him through the most excruciating pain, I could have stopped it, but then we wouldn't be having this conversation would we?
Selah
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Tuesday, 25 August 2009
Where are you?
But the LORD God called to the man, "Where are you?" Genesis 3:9 (NIV)
When God asks a question, believe me when I say He knows the answer already. When God asked this question, it wasn't so much a geographical question as it was a positional one. Adam, where are you? You, the epitome of my creation, where are you? You, I fashioned from the dust of the ground and breathed my very own Spirit in you, where are you? You, who I gave the job to care and tend this garden, where are you? Have you fallen into the devil's deception?
Believer where are you? Are you standing in the purpose I designed you for? Are you walking in love? Where are you? Standing on the Word of God or drowning in the devil's deception when he tells you there is no way out. Where are you my daughter, are you ready for the battle, dressed in your armour or are you playing ten ten in the field oblivious to the forces of the enemy gathering to attack. My daughter, remember who you are, remember whose you are and act accordingly..Selah.
To be continued...
When God asks a question, believe me when I say He knows the answer already. When God asked this question, it wasn't so much a geographical question as it was a positional one. Adam, where are you? You, the epitome of my creation, where are you? You, I fashioned from the dust of the ground and breathed my very own Spirit in you, where are you? You, who I gave the job to care and tend this garden, where are you? Have you fallen into the devil's deception?
Believer where are you? Are you standing in the purpose I designed you for? Are you walking in love? Where are you? Standing on the Word of God or drowning in the devil's deception when he tells you there is no way out. Where are you my daughter, are you ready for the battle, dressed in your armour or are you playing ten ten in the field oblivious to the forces of the enemy gathering to attack. My daughter, remember who you are, remember whose you are and act accordingly..Selah.
To be continued...
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Wednesday, 12 August 2009
Renewal..
re-new verb (used with object)
1. to begin or take up again, as an acquaintance, a conversation, etc.; resume.
2. to restore or replenish: to renew a stock of goods.
3. to make, say, or do again.
4. to revive; reestablish.
5. to recover (youth, strength, etc.).
6. to restore to a former state; make new or as if new again.
Even youths grow tired and weary,and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will RENEW their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40 30-31 (NIV)
He energizes those who get tired, gives fresh strength to dropouts. For even young people tire and drop out, young folk in their prime stumble and fall. But those who wait upon God get fresh strength. They spread their wings and soar like eagles,They run and don't get tired, they walk and don't lag behind. Isaiah 40:30-31 (The Message)
This morning God encouraged me through His word by reminding me that for something to get renewed, it must have existed at some point. Those who hope in the Lord will have their strength renewed; renewed because it existed at some point, to renew a passport, license, gym membership or vows, you must have had them already! Life can be draining but God has given us an assurance that if we go back to Him, the source of all strength, He will give us what we need to get back on track, run the race and be victorious.
He is the only one that can renew vision, purpose, relationships and strength. Talk to Him today, be honest about how you feel and ask Him for the ability to do what you are finding it difficult to do and go in faith and do it. A lot of relationships end not so much because of what was done but for the little things that were not done, the things that renew the relationship. Do you need to renew your relationship with the Father today? His arms are always open.
Remain blessed and highly favoured. This is our month of LAUGHTER and I know the Lord will give you a reason to rejoice in Jesus name.
1. to begin or take up again, as an acquaintance, a conversation, etc.; resume.
2. to restore or replenish: to renew a stock of goods.
3. to make, say, or do again.
4. to revive; reestablish.
5. to recover (youth, strength, etc.).
6. to restore to a former state; make new or as if new again.
Even youths grow tired and weary,and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will RENEW their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40 30-31 (NIV)
He energizes those who get tired, gives fresh strength to dropouts. For even young people tire and drop out, young folk in their prime stumble and fall. But those who wait upon God get fresh strength. They spread their wings and soar like eagles,They run and don't get tired, they walk and don't lag behind. Isaiah 40:30-31 (The Message)
This morning God encouraged me through His word by reminding me that for something to get renewed, it must have existed at some point. Those who hope in the Lord will have their strength renewed; renewed because it existed at some point, to renew a passport, license, gym membership or vows, you must have had them already! Life can be draining but God has given us an assurance that if we go back to Him, the source of all strength, He will give us what we need to get back on track, run the race and be victorious.
He is the only one that can renew vision, purpose, relationships and strength. Talk to Him today, be honest about how you feel and ask Him for the ability to do what you are finding it difficult to do and go in faith and do it. A lot of relationships end not so much because of what was done but for the little things that were not done, the things that renew the relationship. Do you need to renew your relationship with the Father today? His arms are always open.
Remain blessed and highly favoured. This is our month of LAUGHTER and I know the Lord will give you a reason to rejoice in Jesus name.
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Tuesday, 28 July 2009
Death
Zoe Believer is dying to herself, to her will, to her plans and to her flesh. It's been slow and painful but worthwhile.Fruitfulness involves death. He says,
"I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains a SINGLE SEED. But if it dies, it produces MANY SEEDS. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life" John 12:24-25 (NIV)
To produce fruit in every area of our lives, we must go via death. Jesus is our model and pattern and has shown us the way. I strongly believe that the reason Jesus worked and walked in a dimension that has been impossible to follow is that in his humanity He was totally sold out to the will of God. 100% submitted, 100% obedient, 100% dead to himself and 100% sold out to the will of the Father.
"Believer, are you dying or are you struggling to live, are you letting go to drown in the river of His love or are you trying so hard to swim against the tide. Are you ready to die to your pride, to your will, to your plans that a new you may resurrect and emerge, even in the world of business and wealth creation, you must die to the lure of liabilities that you may invest your income in assets so that the things you said no to today, you will be able to say yes to tomorrow. Believer, I have put you in the position that you have found yourself in today. I am teaching you a lesson but you are not learning. Say no to your flesh and what it craves; physically, sweets that brings no nourishment; anger, holding on to your 'rights' about issues, you may be right but how does your anger move you forward??"
So Lord, help me. It's difficult to climb, to take up your cross DAILY and follow you because usually I want to go on my own path. Help me to die that I may live for to be carnally minded is death but when I live for you it is life and peace. Help me to pass the tests on the path you have designed for me. Help me to love you, myself and others as you would like me to.
"I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains a SINGLE SEED. But if it dies, it produces MANY SEEDS. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life" John 12:24-25 (NIV)
To produce fruit in every area of our lives, we must go via death. Jesus is our model and pattern and has shown us the way. I strongly believe that the reason Jesus worked and walked in a dimension that has been impossible to follow is that in his humanity He was totally sold out to the will of God. 100% submitted, 100% obedient, 100% dead to himself and 100% sold out to the will of the Father.
"Believer, are you dying or are you struggling to live, are you letting go to drown in the river of His love or are you trying so hard to swim against the tide. Are you ready to die to your pride, to your will, to your plans that a new you may resurrect and emerge, even in the world of business and wealth creation, you must die to the lure of liabilities that you may invest your income in assets so that the things you said no to today, you will be able to say yes to tomorrow. Believer, I have put you in the position that you have found yourself in today. I am teaching you a lesson but you are not learning. Say no to your flesh and what it craves; physically, sweets that brings no nourishment; anger, holding on to your 'rights' about issues, you may be right but how does your anger move you forward??"
So Lord, help me. It's difficult to climb, to take up your cross DAILY and follow you because usually I want to go on my own path. Help me to die that I may live for to be carnally minded is death but when I live for you it is life and peace. Help me to pass the tests on the path you have designed for me. Help me to love you, myself and others as you would like me to.
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Monday, 22 June 2009
What??
God: You've asked me how, you've asked me when, you've sung the 'Why me' single but my question for you is What? What contribution are you making to the Kingdom of God? What are you doing for me? What have you done for me lately?
Believer: Still thinking about it..
Selah
Believer: Still thinking about it..
Selah
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Saturday, 13 June 2009
Carnal believer...me?
Examine yourself to see whether you are in the faith; test yourself (2nd Corinthians 13:5a)
And now O Israel, what does the Lord your God require of you but to fear the Lord your God to walk in all his ways, to love him, to serve the Lord your God with ALL your heart and with ALL your soul (Deut 10:12)
Brothers(and sisters!), I could not adress you as spiritual but as worldly-mere infants in Christ......You are still worldly. For since there is jealousy and quarrelling among you, are you not worldly? Are you not acting like mere men 1st Corinthians 1:1-3 (bracket mine)
I woke up one morning, weighed down with issues I had been pondering (not praying...just pondering) on through the night. I opened my mouth to say thank you Jesus for a new day and was startled to hear this back.."Stop being a carnal believer!". I was like, who me? Yes, of course me. I'm sure it's a strange term to hear and I will admit it was a truth that was a bit difficult to swallow but along the way I had moved from being God-centred to 'other' centred.
So who is a carnal believer? I put in some notes from my study Bible.
"People fall into 3 spiritual categories that clarify how the revelation of the Cross by the spirit is received from the human side. First, the natural man, unregenerate and devoid of the Spirit has no appreciation for the gospel. Second we have the spiritual man, regenerated and possessing spiritual maturity...has a nature that responds to truth and unbelievers find him difficult to understand. The CARNAL man has been regenerated but lives much like an unregenerate, is a BELIEVER with childish ways.....an IMMATURE CHRISTIAN that lives more for human opinion than Christ. (Notes under 1st Corinthians 2:14-3:4 in the Spirit Filled Study Bible).
Yeh pa, although I have to say, I was convicted as I saw myself in one of those categories and not the one I thought I would find myself in. When we become born again, we are regenerated, new creatures in God. The use of the word born indicates that in this new kingdom we are children irrespective of what our age is in the natural and from that point on we should strive and our main purpose should be growing in things of the Spirit to catch up so to speak.
I've been busy, busy keeping up with all my 'roles'. Student, teacher, daughter, girlfriend, sister, friend, colleague, Committee Secretary e.t.c. In this busyness of life, my relationship with God had moved from being my first priority to one of the agenda's on the To Do List of my life; half hearted prayer in the morning as I prepared fro my day, singing songs but not giving genuine worship. Thank God for His mercy and grace. God showed me that this were signs and symptoms of a backslidden heart! Isn't that harsh you may ask? But is it really, I always used to see backslidding as an act; when a believer gave into temptation and 'fell' into some sin but backslidding is a thing of the heart when I place my idols (however good they may be) in a place reserved for God alone. The word says we should 'seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all other things will be added' but I had been seeking other things and expecting the kingdom to be added. I was tired, stressed, fed-up, angry, bitter wondering why things were not working as they should.
God is well mannered; oh so well mannered, when He is not King in my life, he does not act as if He is king, I don't get those instructions I need to work smart and not hard. I thank God for His mercy, He spoke to me as He did to the Israelites through Haggai.."Believer, give careful thought to your ways"
'You have planted much but have harvested little. you eat, but never have enough. You drink but never have your fill. You put on clothes but are not warm. You earn wages only to put them in a purse with holes in it' Haggai 1:6.
I couldn't have expressed what I was feeling more accurately and why?
.."Because of my house which remains a ruin, while each of you is busy with his own house v9
I know preachers use this scripture to encourage people give to the building fund but if we remember that we are now the temple of God, His altar being built in our hearts. How am I building it? Am I building it? or am I building the other areas of my life. Father, forgive me. God said we should love Him with ALL our heart, soul and might. I sing about God's presence being the air that I breathe and my daily bread but it's amazing how easy it is for me to exchange it for other things. If you had breathing problems what would you exchange for your oxygen tank? A new job, a promotion, a marriage partner, what? Nothing, because that oxygen is my life source. Nothing satisfies like Christ, David really knew this because he said his heart longeth for God as the deers for the streams of water. Selah!
I don't want to be carnal anymore; allowing myself to be tossed from one wave of emotion to the other, happy today, sad tomorrow. The carnal believer knows and believes God but has not gotten to a place where God is lord over every area. Hmm, I know I'm not there yet but that's the road less travelled I'm moving on these days, towards spiritual maturity in God. Keeping God as King over my life, making and keeping our 'dates' where we discuss deep stuff. Keeping my life holy so that there is always room for Him in my heart. I don't want to be carnal anymore; allowing the cares of this world to choke God's words that He has planted in my life; being angry, jealous and bitter. I don't want to be good for a few hours on Sunday and then different on Monday, Tuesday, I'm tired of religion, I want to depend on God for everything from when I open my eyes in the morning to when I shut them at night.
A prayer
Forgive me Lord for I have sinned. I have placed people, things, goals and dreams where you should be rightfully seated. I have not loved you with my all; heart, soul or strength. I have not loved my neighbour as myself. Thank you for your mercy and grace and persistence in drawing me back home to you where your love is waiting for me. I bless your name and give you praise for you are worthy to receive it. Teach me O Lord, create a hunger and thirst after righteousness in my heart in Jesus name. I don't want to be a carnal believer anymore. Help O Lord in Jesus name.
And now O Israel, what does the Lord your God require of you but to fear the Lord your God to walk in all his ways, to love him, to serve the Lord your God with ALL your heart and with ALL your soul (Deut 10:12)
Brothers(and sisters!), I could not adress you as spiritual but as worldly-mere infants in Christ......You are still worldly. For since there is jealousy and quarrelling among you, are you not worldly? Are you not acting like mere men 1st Corinthians 1:1-3 (bracket mine)
I woke up one morning, weighed down with issues I had been pondering (not praying...just pondering) on through the night. I opened my mouth to say thank you Jesus for a new day and was startled to hear this back.."Stop being a carnal believer!". I was like, who me? Yes, of course me. I'm sure it's a strange term to hear and I will admit it was a truth that was a bit difficult to swallow but along the way I had moved from being God-centred to 'other' centred.
So who is a carnal believer? I put in some notes from my study Bible.
"People fall into 3 spiritual categories that clarify how the revelation of the Cross by the spirit is received from the human side. First, the natural man, unregenerate and devoid of the Spirit has no appreciation for the gospel. Second we have the spiritual man, regenerated and possessing spiritual maturity...has a nature that responds to truth and unbelievers find him difficult to understand. The CARNAL man has been regenerated but lives much like an unregenerate, is a BELIEVER with childish ways.....an IMMATURE CHRISTIAN that lives more for human opinion than Christ. (Notes under 1st Corinthians 2:14-3:4 in the Spirit Filled Study Bible).
Yeh pa, although I have to say, I was convicted as I saw myself in one of those categories and not the one I thought I would find myself in. When we become born again, we are regenerated, new creatures in God. The use of the word born indicates that in this new kingdom we are children irrespective of what our age is in the natural and from that point on we should strive and our main purpose should be growing in things of the Spirit to catch up so to speak.
I've been busy, busy keeping up with all my 'roles'. Student, teacher, daughter, girlfriend, sister, friend, colleague, Committee Secretary e.t.c. In this busyness of life, my relationship with God had moved from being my first priority to one of the agenda's on the To Do List of my life; half hearted prayer in the morning as I prepared fro my day, singing songs but not giving genuine worship. Thank God for His mercy and grace. God showed me that this were signs and symptoms of a backslidden heart! Isn't that harsh you may ask? But is it really, I always used to see backslidding as an act; when a believer gave into temptation and 'fell' into some sin but backslidding is a thing of the heart when I place my idols (however good they may be) in a place reserved for God alone. The word says we should 'seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all other things will be added' but I had been seeking other things and expecting the kingdom to be added. I was tired, stressed, fed-up, angry, bitter wondering why things were not working as they should.
God is well mannered; oh so well mannered, when He is not King in my life, he does not act as if He is king, I don't get those instructions I need to work smart and not hard. I thank God for His mercy, He spoke to me as He did to the Israelites through Haggai.."Believer, give careful thought to your ways"
'You have planted much but have harvested little. you eat, but never have enough. You drink but never have your fill. You put on clothes but are not warm. You earn wages only to put them in a purse with holes in it' Haggai 1:6.
I couldn't have expressed what I was feeling more accurately and why?
.."Because of my house which remains a ruin, while each of you is busy with his own house v9
I know preachers use this scripture to encourage people give to the building fund but if we remember that we are now the temple of God, His altar being built in our hearts. How am I building it? Am I building it? or am I building the other areas of my life. Father, forgive me. God said we should love Him with ALL our heart, soul and might. I sing about God's presence being the air that I breathe and my daily bread but it's amazing how easy it is for me to exchange it for other things. If you had breathing problems what would you exchange for your oxygen tank? A new job, a promotion, a marriage partner, what? Nothing, because that oxygen is my life source. Nothing satisfies like Christ, David really knew this because he said his heart longeth for God as the deers for the streams of water. Selah!
I don't want to be carnal anymore; allowing myself to be tossed from one wave of emotion to the other, happy today, sad tomorrow. The carnal believer knows and believes God but has not gotten to a place where God is lord over every area. Hmm, I know I'm not there yet but that's the road less travelled I'm moving on these days, towards spiritual maturity in God. Keeping God as King over my life, making and keeping our 'dates' where we discuss deep stuff. Keeping my life holy so that there is always room for Him in my heart. I don't want to be carnal anymore; allowing the cares of this world to choke God's words that He has planted in my life; being angry, jealous and bitter. I don't want to be good for a few hours on Sunday and then different on Monday, Tuesday, I'm tired of religion, I want to depend on God for everything from when I open my eyes in the morning to when I shut them at night.
A prayer
Forgive me Lord for I have sinned. I have placed people, things, goals and dreams where you should be rightfully seated. I have not loved you with my all; heart, soul or strength. I have not loved my neighbour as myself. Thank you for your mercy and grace and persistence in drawing me back home to you where your love is waiting for me. I bless your name and give you praise for you are worthy to receive it. Teach me O Lord, create a hunger and thirst after righteousness in my heart in Jesus name. I don't want to be a carnal believer anymore. Help O Lord in Jesus name.
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Friday, 12 June 2009
Faith..
Zoe Believer: How, God, how? When God, when?
God: Don't expect something that began with the strength of faith to finish on the basis of sight!
Selah
Now FAITH is being SURE of what we HOPE for, being CONFIDENT of what we do not SEE (Hebrews 11:1)
God: Don't expect something that began with the strength of faith to finish on the basis of sight!
Selah
Now FAITH is being SURE of what we HOPE for, being CONFIDENT of what we do not SEE (Hebrews 11:1)
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Friday, 22 May 2009
Monday, 16 June 2008
A prayer
Lord save me
I feel like I'm drowning
I don't want to fail...AGAIN
Your word says you will guide me
Forgive me for doing things my own way
For not waiting for the still small voice
Help me Lord
For I know without you
I can do nothing
I put my trust in your word
Carry me today
I'll trust you with everything
Thank you for loving me
ALL the time
Update......
He said: "My darling daughter, I love you in a way that you can never understand. Relax and rest in me. Trust me that irrespective of what you go through...that I have got your back, that I will see you through, that I am always here. You have looked for what you thought you needed to be happy and satisfied but you can only find true satisfaction in me. All else fails, but my love cannot fail. It reaches out to pull you no matter the distance you have travelled. Look outside the window, look at the sky, the sun was out but now it isn't but I am still God. I know all and see all. My arms are always open for you to come and find rest in. So pick yourself up, square your shoulders, get your books out and stand tall because you will be ok. Put a smile on your face simply because the Father loves you and all His promises to you will come to pass. Sing a new song today, let it be a song of praise. Always remember that when you don't know what to do, it is always important to know where to go. Talk to me, i'll sort you out. I promise. I love you, I always have and I always will. It's the only thing I can't stop and I can't help. TRUST ME"
I said: Isn't God the BOMB!Honestly....
I feel like I'm drowning
I don't want to fail...AGAIN
Your word says you will guide me
Forgive me for doing things my own way
For not waiting for the still small voice
Help me Lord
For I know without you
I can do nothing
I put my trust in your word
Carry me today
I'll trust you with everything
Thank you for loving me
ALL the time
Update......
He said: "My darling daughter, I love you in a way that you can never understand. Relax and rest in me. Trust me that irrespective of what you go through...that I have got your back, that I will see you through, that I am always here. You have looked for what you thought you needed to be happy and satisfied but you can only find true satisfaction in me. All else fails, but my love cannot fail. It reaches out to pull you no matter the distance you have travelled. Look outside the window, look at the sky, the sun was out but now it isn't but I am still God. I know all and see all. My arms are always open for you to come and find rest in. So pick yourself up, square your shoulders, get your books out and stand tall because you will be ok. Put a smile on your face simply because the Father loves you and all His promises to you will come to pass. Sing a new song today, let it be a song of praise. Always remember that when you don't know what to do, it is always important to know where to go. Talk to me, i'll sort you out. I promise. I love you, I always have and I always will. It's the only thing I can't stop and I can't help. TRUST ME"
I said: Isn't God the BOMB!Honestly....
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Tuesday, 27 May 2008
a psalm
A Psalm by Believer when she hit rock bottom and realised the only direction for help was from above
O Lord it is unto you
I lift up my eyes
and my soul and my hands
I lift up myself
For I have sunk to the depths
I smile to the world
But I cry on the inside
I feel overwhelmed
and am heavy with thought (Selah)
But through the darkness
the light of your word shines through
you said you are the I AM
Jehovah Shammah, ever present
Jehovah Shalom, Prince of Peace
Jehovah Tsikendu, my righteousness
Jehovah Rohi, my Shepherd
You are with me always
I can never hide from your presence
so I receive the strength i need
to overcome this day
and I will rejoice
because those who know their God
are strong and do exploits
Amen
O Lord it is unto you
I lift up my eyes
and my soul and my hands
I lift up myself
For I have sunk to the depths
I smile to the world
But I cry on the inside
I feel overwhelmed
and am heavy with thought (Selah)
But through the darkness
the light of your word shines through
you said you are the I AM
Jehovah Shammah, ever present
Jehovah Shalom, Prince of Peace
Jehovah Tsikendu, my righteousness
Jehovah Rohi, my Shepherd
You are with me always
I can never hide from your presence
so I receive the strength i need
to overcome this day
and I will rejoice
because those who know their God
are strong and do exploits
Amen
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Thursday, 8 May 2008
8/5/08
If 8 equals New beginnings and 5 equals Grace then today reminds me that between one new beginning and the next the grace of God is sufficient. I was just pondering on some stuff asking God how many times I had to start over. He said as long as His grace remains sufficient, I can start over. Then as I was labelling something and wrote the date, I undersood what He was saying.
I love you Daddy because you can speak ANYWHERE and ANYTIME to ANYONE who is WILLING to listen. Thanks for making my day today. You know I really needed that.
Remain blessed and highly favoured. 2008 continues to remain our year of uncommon testimony.
I love you Daddy because you can speak ANYWHERE and ANYTIME to ANYONE who is WILLING to listen. Thanks for making my day today. You know I really needed that.
Remain blessed and highly favoured. 2008 continues to remain our year of uncommon testimony.
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