Tuesday, 28 July 2009


Zoe Believer is dying to herself, to her will, to her plans and to her flesh. It's been slow and painful but worthwhile.Fruitfulness involves death. He says,

"I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains a SINGLE SEED. But if it dies, it produces MANY SEEDS. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life" John 12:24-25 (NIV)

To produce fruit in every area of our lives, we must go via death. Jesus is our model and pattern and has shown us the way. I strongly believe that the reason Jesus worked and walked in a dimension that has been impossible to follow is that in his humanity He was totally sold out to the will of God. 100% submitted, 100% obedient, 100% dead to himself and 100% sold out to the will of the Father.

"Believer, are you dying or are you struggling to live, are you letting go to drown in the river of His love or are you trying so hard to swim against the tide. Are you ready to die to your pride, to your will, to your plans that a new you may resurrect and emerge, even in the world of business and wealth creation, you must die to the lure of liabilities that you may invest your income in assets so that the things you said no to today, you will be able to say yes to tomorrow. Believer, I have put you in the position that you have found yourself in today. I am teaching you a lesson but you are not learning. Say no to your flesh and what it craves; physically, sweets that brings no nourishment; anger, holding on to your 'rights' about issues, you may be right but how does your anger move you forward??"

So Lord, help me. It's difficult to climb, to take up your cross DAILY and follow you because usually I want to go on my own path. Help me to die that I may live for to be carnally minded is death but when I live for you it is life and peace. Help me to pass the tests on the path you have designed for me. Help me to love you, myself and others as you would like me to.

Thursday, 16 July 2009


has been teaching me to love. It is beautiful, it is painful, it should come with a warning that says "attempt at your own risk" but we were created to love. To love Him, to love ourselves and to love others, if I may say in that order. We cannot truly love Him and hate ourselves for we were born of Him, we cannot truly love Him and hate others either. To love is to give up of yourself, it requires depth and maturity, no more "Why me" but "Why not me", sometimes you say yes when you would rather say no and you say no when everything on the inside is screaming yes. Sometimes love requires you to walk away from something or someone that seems so good but you know is not the best.

Love is a feeling and a doing both at the same time but it's hard to go on when the feeling is not there but the truth is when we accept it God gives us the grace and ability to do ALL that He has asked us to do, there is a love that is natural but we do not require praise for this, when we begin to love supernaturally, hmm! I need to love Him, me and you. Who do you need to love today? Is it your mum or your dad, hubby, wifey, daughter/son. So many times, my love is performance oriented, only given to show appreciation, God is teaching me to show love both when it is deserved and when it is undeserved. Possible, yes, easy...no, not by a long mile.

God's love is so pure, I don't know if I'll ever get that far this side of eternity but I'm determined to get as close to it as possible. I had a funny experience on the train a few weeks ago and I just thought about what would happen if it were to blow up and I died (what a thought I know) but my first thought was why, why, why didn't i let my sisters know that i love and appreciate them. Isn't it funny how we behave because we always feel we have time. My dear sisters, I love and appreciate you.

I don't even know why I'm writing this, I thought I was going to write a farewell post! Lol! It is well.