GOD...

has been teaching me to love. It is beautiful, it is painful, it should come with a warning that says "attempt at your own risk" but we were created to love. To love Him, to love ourselves and to love others, if I may say in that order. We cannot truly love Him and hate ourselves for we were born of Him, we cannot truly love Him and hate others either. To love is to give up of yourself, it requires depth and maturity, no more "Why me" but "Why not me", sometimes you say yes when you would rather say no and you say no when everything on the inside is screaming yes. Sometimes love requires you to walk away from something or someone that seems so good but you know is not the best.

Love is a feeling and a doing both at the same time but it's hard to go on when the feeling is not there but the truth is when we accept it God gives us the grace and ability to do ALL that He has asked us to do, there is a love that is natural but we do not require praise for this, when we begin to love supernaturally, hmm! I need to love Him, me and you. Who do you need to love today? Is it your mum or your dad, hubby, wifey, daughter/son. So many times, my love is performance oriented, only given to show appreciation, God is teaching me to show love both when it is deserved and when it is undeserved. Possible, yes, easy...no, not by a long mile.

God's love is so pure, I don't know if I'll ever get that far this side of eternity but I'm determined to get as close to it as possible. I had a funny experience on the train a few weeks ago and I just thought about what would happen if it were to blow up and I died (what a thought I know) but my first thought was why, why, why didn't i let my sisters know that i love and appreciate them. Isn't it funny how we behave because we always feel we have time. My dear sisters, I love and appreciate you.

I don't even know why I'm writing this, I thought I was going to write a farewell post! Lol! It is well.