A season of prayer: Day 38

A Prayer when I feel inadequate

O Lord you are my God
And I will ALWAYS praise you
I will seek you in the morning
I will praise you all of my days
And step by step
you'll lead me
And I will follow you all of my days
(Author, you are acknowledged, couldn't find you on Google, sorry)

As we worship in your presence
there is healing
the Holy Spirit's gentle touch
is flowing
Jesus
BELIEVER believes
Jesus
there is healing in your name
Almighty Father
We lift our hands to you
We receive the power
to heal as you would do
(Bob Fitts, capitals mine)

You're all I want
You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want
HELP ME KNOW YOU ARE NEAR
(Kelly Carpenter, 1994)

Dear Daddy, the songwriters portray the feelings in my heart. Like P-Square will sing, no one be like you, even though I've searched many places and seen many faces, who can take the place of my God. The Omnipotent (omni-potential, Thanks Bishop Bismark!), Omniscient, all seeing and all knowing God. The One who sees the real Believer and loves her anyway. Loves her with her weaknesses and frailties, loves her through her doubts, loves her to a place where she is ready to take up her cross daily to follow the Lover of her soul. There is no one like you who can give us grace, that unmerited favour that enables us to receive birthday presents when it is not our birthday! Daddy, I bless your name. Thank you for everything. Thank you for the little things and thank you for the big things. Thank you for the words of prophecy we received at FOL, give me the grace to keep running with them until the prophecy becomes a testimony. Thank you for this season in Jesus name.

Daddy, you know me as in you really know me. Beyond all the layers, you see me naked and you have never been ashamed. These days, I have been struggling so much with feeling inadequate. I look at the tasks, I look at myself, I look back at the task again and wonder how shall these things be? I hear the word and I encourage myself in it but today you showed me that I haven't meditated on it enough therefore the cares of this life and all I need to do keep choking it before it can take root in my life. Daddy, remind me that it has never been about me. It is the Spirit that gives life, you said to me;

"If you are willing, I will speak through you, heal through you, encourage through you, strengthen through you, love through you. Therefore you do not need to worry, what you need to do is FOCUS and spend more time in my presence".

Daddy, I realise that these feelings come when I look at myself and not at you so now I'm looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of my faith and like him for the joy that has been set before me will endure the cross and despise the shame for I know I will reap in my due season if I faint not. I of myself am inadequate but you are Christ in me, my hope of glory. With your help, I will bend my bow (sort out this wonky PCR!) and I will leap over a wall (successfully finish my degree). Your word says I will hear a voice behind me telling me which way to go. Today I choose to have the right attitude about the obstacles on my way. They are opportunities to show yourself strong and mighty. Greater are you O lord in me, than the fears in the world. Your power is astounding and I know you will make a way for me and for us. I am nothing but you are the I AM THAT I AM including I AM THE ANSWER.

I speak light into the darkness, order into disorder. You said speak TO the mountain and not about it, speak TO the darkness and not about it. Life and death are in my tongue and I create my world with my words because I'm your baby and it's in my DNA. Thank you Father, thank you because everytime I pour out my heart unto you, I feel better, I feel stronger, I feel ready to conquer, overcome and take territory. I love you O lord my God for you are good and your mercies endureth forever. Thank you Jesus. Help me to continue to take you at your word for your word is good.

Amen and Amen.

N.B Father please forgive Vera for playing an April fool's trick on me but it was sure funny!!! Hahaha..

My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him.He alone is my rock and my salvation;he is my fortress, I will never be shaken. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge. Selah (Selected verses from Psalm 62)