Reflections

I PRAISE you because I am FEARFULLY and WONDERFULLY made; your WORKS are WONDERFUL, I know that full well Psalm 139:14 (NIV: Capitals mine)

won.der.ful: Excellent, great, marvelous, of a sort that causes or arouses wonder, amazing, astonishing (http://dictionary.reference.com/)

Synonyms 1. awesome, wondrous, miraculous, prodigious, astonishing, amazing, astounding, phenomenal, unique, curious, strange.


I'm looking through the windows
looking at the little girl
shy and quiet
desperately wanting to be accepted
by the 'in crowd'
but always left on the outside
looking in

I'm watching the little girl
quickly transforming into a young woman
very much aware
of her changing body
and desperately praying for it to stop
as she becomes the butt of jokes from the girls
and is treated as an object by the boys


I am looking at the young woman
hiding behind oversize clothes
never able to make eye contact
as her eyes are always downcast
not able to look in the mirror
as all she sees are her flaws


I am looking at the young woman
staring at herself in the same mirror
as if seeing herself for the very first time
realising that although her body is not perfect
it is her's
her's to love and accept
her's to cherish and pamper
her's to change if she wants to
she sees herself
and she knows she is beautiful

I am looking at her
and I am smiling
because it was not an easy journey
for the shy little girl who is growing into a young confident woman is
ME

This was inspired by Daddy's Girl's carnival, a celebration of our bodies. We celebrate not because we have 'perfect' bodies (whatever perfection may mean!) but because we have been WONDERFULLY made. I love the synonyms of this word...I am created AMAZING. Halleluyah! Lord I thank you for my body. It houses my spirit and my soul, gets me to where I need to be. Yes, it's limited to time and space, yes it gets tired, yes there are some things that need to be tightened (LOL!!) but I still thank you for all of it. From the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, it's all wonderful!

Just praise

I waited patiently for the Lord; He turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; He set my feet on a ROCK and gave me a firm place to STAND. He put a NEW SONG in my mouth, a hymn of PRAISE to our God. Psalm 40:1-3a (NIV) Capitals mine

Who can fathom You
O my Lord and my King
Your ways are much higher than my ways
Your thoughts much deeper than mine
O lord indeed You are very great
Yet you choose me
To love me
To cherish me
I love you Lord
Even when I don't understand
what's going on around me
I love you
I love you
because You first loved me
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You are my Master
You are my King
You are the Lover of my soul
You are my ever present Help in my time of need
You are my shield and my buckler
You are my strong tower in the storm
You are the one who is with me at ALL times
You are all these and MORE, so much more
What else can I do but lie prostrate before your presence
Saying thank you seems hardly enough
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What can I say O Lord
of your goodness and mercy
of your grace and faithfulness
to me
there isn't enough time
this side of eternity
there aren't enough words
in the dictionary
but i'll start by saying
I love you
with all my heart and soul
with all that is within me
I love you
with everything
No more holding back
I abandon myself to you
I'm not afraid anymore
For I know you're loving me
too

This week I am on a mission. A mission to live without complaining about anything but thanking God for everything. A week of being grateful for all that the Lord has done and all that He is to me. A week of celebrating the good in others and affirming them and not nitpicking on what they do wrong. I'm trusting God that by His grace I will be able to do it because I can do ALL things through Him because He strengthens me. I'm just so expectant. I trust you are as well.

Remain blessed and highly favoured. As always this year continues to remain our year of UNCOMMON TESTIMONY

His face

But , he said, "you cannot see my face, for no one may see my face and live" Exodus 33:20

I wonder why no one could see your face and live
Was your face that scary?
Or you didn't want anyone to know
You had a dimple in your left cheek
Now I know
that
your face is so beautiful
Your eyes are so full of love
Surrounded by the splendour of your majesty
Illuminated with your light
Truly
no one can see your face and live
not here anyway
we would want to leave
to live with you forever

Coming back home

The Lord says: "These people say they love me; they show honour to me with WORDS, but their HEARTS are far from me. The honour they show me is nothing but human rules. Isaiah 29:13 (New Century Version) Capitals mine

Forgive me Lord
for i have strayed
With my mouth
I have sang your praise
But my heart
Has been far from you
I have been so busy
chasing deadlines,
meetings,
people
forgetting that
I'm supposed to be
chasing
You,
Lover of my life,
Lover of my soul,
My Husband
My Father
My Friend
the One who delights in Me
So I've come back home to you
Your love has drawn me back
I find You so irresistible
It's difficult...no impossible
to live without You
I've tasted and seen
that You are good
Truly your mercy endureth forever
Thank you for loving me
THAT much

The Christian race is not an easy one, yes even Believer does stray but never beyond the reach of His grace and love. It's not only when we commit a 'BIG' sin like lying, stealing or gossip that we need His forgiveness. Sometimes it's just for not keeping Him first. His first commandment says we must have no other gods before Him (Exodus 20:3). Sometimes our 'gods' are good things but I have learnt that they are a poor substitute for abiding with the Father. It is well. I'm learning more about Him and His wonderful love with each passing day. Just remember that for you as well, His love is deep enough to catch you at whatever point you may be.

Remain blessed and highly favoured. 2008 continues to be our year of UNCOMMON TESTIMONY.